Sunday, March 22, 2020

Roll Over, Evelyn Waugh — Geoff Dyer Finds Laughs & Humor In Our Own Plague Year

As this blogger read Geoff Dyer's essay about living in the US during a pandemic and scanned Dyer's descriptions and reactions, the blogger remembered reading another Brit's reaction to US attitudes toward death, Evelyn Waugh (full name: Arthur Evelyn St. John Waugh) spent a brief post-war interlude (1945-1947) on a film project of one of Waugh's novels, Brideshead Revisited. When the project collapsed, Waugh remained in Los Angeles and went on a tour of one of the most famous (or infamous) cemeteries in Southern California: Forest Lawn Memorial Park in Hollywood Hills, CA. The experience and several return visits to Forest Lawn, were the basis of Waugh's British interpretation of death and funerals in the United States: The Loved One. And Geoff Dyer carries on the tradition of a British view of US attitudes toward death and dying. If this is (fair & balanced) macabre humor, so be it.

[x The New Yorker]
The Existential Inconvenience Of Coronavirus
By Geoff Dyer


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This might be the first installment of a rewrite of A Journal of the Plague Year, but it will be written in real time rather than with the benefit of the fifty-odd years of hindsight that Daniel Defoe was able to draw on. If all goes well—or very badly—it might also be the last installment, because although we’re only at the beginning of the coronavirus outbreak, I’m close to the end of my tether. Physical effects lie in the future, but the psychic toll is already huge—and wide-ranging. At the top end: Am I going to catch it? This can be answered with a slight rephrasing of Philip Larkin’s famous line from Aubade: most things may never happen; this one probably will. Strangely, that comes far down on the list of worries. Dying, that most worrisome thing, occupies less head space than the most minute things. Don’t sweat the small stuff, runs the advice—and it’s all small stuff. Except the small stuff—so small it’s invisible—is the big stuff. See? We’re getting in a right old tizz, so let’s calm down and itemize our concerns, concerns about the virus which are also symptoms occasioned by it.

At the moment, the main concern is inconvenience. When trains or planes are delayed, the operators routinely “apologize for any inconvenience,” as though inconvenience were just a minor thing, as opposed to an “existential threat,” for example. But inconvenience is only inconvenient when it happens to other people; when it happens to you, it feels threatening. For most of us, our actual experience of terrorism, even at its most threatening, is of radical or habitual inconvenience. At present, this means asking ourselves if we will be able to go to X or Y and, if we go there, whether we will be able to get back. I can actually answer that quite easily. We’re not going. We’re not going to Indian Wells for the tennis, because it’s been cancelled, and we’re not going to Mexico, because we’ve cancelled, less owing to fears of catching the bug than to our desire to put an end to the are-we-or-aren’t-we? angst. It was a huge weight off our minds when we jumped ship (a plane, actually) so that we could stay home and contemplate the implications of existential inconvenience.

The good news is that, for many of us, the virus might amount to nothing more inconvenient than the flu. As someone who hasn’t caught even a cold in the past five years, the flu, until recently, seemed a dreadful prospect, but I’d settle for it in a heartbeat now. Book an appointment, put it in the diary, get it over with, and get over it! That’s basically what happened last year. After I turned sixty, my doctor suggested that I get the latest shingles vaccine. As an Englishman living in America, I’m often suspicious whether a new medical product is a genuine breakthrough or just the latest hustle from Big Pharma. So I quizzed her about the side effects and the price. Maybe a sore arm, she said, and my health insurance would cover the full cost. “Deal,” I said. “Let’s do it!” As advertised, my arm hurt a bit (couldn’t move it). I also went to bed feeling slightly under the weather. The next morning, I woke with a headache, a fever, and muscle aches that lasted for three days. It turns out that almost everyone I know who’s had this shot has reacted the same way. And not only that—you also need a follow-up shot three months later, with similar results. So I scheduled that for a quiet week and, right on cue, went down with this flu-ey thing again, for just two days this time. It was both thoroughly unpleasant—though a lot less unpleasant than shingles—and really quite convenient. A two-week helping of something like that at the time of my choosing now sounds very appealing—if it would content itself with being just the flu. I’ll be sixty-two in June, and I’m enjoying the perk of senior discounts while moving deeper into the risk demographic of those susceptible to more-than-flu.

None of which seemed, a week ago, to concern the students at the university where I teach, in Los Angeles. They were blasé about the whole thing, understandably, since they’re young and, it seems, permanently afflicted by the colds, coughs, and sniffles to which I have developed the immunity of age—which is not unrelated to the cunning of age. It required surprisingly little maneuvering to make sure that they were the ones opening doors so I could squeeze in or out behind them like a fare dodger at the gates on the London Tube. Colleagues were less easily duped. A friend who teaches Faulkner saw exactly what I was up to as I Englishly ushered him ahead (“Please, after you, Brian”), but he stepped up and reached for the bug-smeared door anyway. Naturally, he was up to something, too, and had taken measures to insure that As I Lay Dying remained a literary rather than literal experience. He was holding the door for me because he was also, in drug argot, holding. Hand sanitizer, that is. My wife and I hadn’t stocked up on it because we wanted to be good citizens. Now we wish that we’d bought a couple of gallons, before panic buying emptied the shelves. (A terrible sight: Is anything more un-American than an empty shelf?) In The Plague (itself hard to find because of a sudden surge in what the students insist on calling relatability), Albert Camus writes that in times of pestilence we learn that there is more in men to admire than to despise. I want this to be true—to go back to Larkin again, I want our almost-instinct to be almost-true—but how does that square with people hoarding toilet paper and face masks in a city where, at the time of writing, there have been relatively few confirmed cases?

We’ve got just one little bottle of hand sanitizer, which, in another potential contradiction of Camus’s claim, I’ve made clear that I deserve more than my wife because, frankly, I paid for it. “Strictly speaking, it’s not ours,” I pointed out. “It’s mine.” The soap in our apartment is still communal, though, so we’re always jostling at the sink, bleaching our hands like the Macbeths. And what a minefield of anxiety the simple act of washing has become. Wash your hands every time you come in the house, they say. But, having got in and washed your hands, you then touch stuff you had with you in the viral swamp of the outdoors. And although we turned on the tap with a knuckle-nudge, those same knuckles were used to touch the keypad on our way into the apartment complex. Can flawed washing become a form of spreading? And how about the keys used to unlock our door? Should we be washing them as well? Once you become conscious of the tactile chain of potential infection, the ground rapidly gives way beneath your feet. We’ve now got a routine, have established a sort of cordon sanitaire, but how are we going to keep this up? Maybe we started too soon, especially since my hands are already rashy from the unprecedented orgy of scrubbing, soaping, and sanitizing. In spite of evidence of panic buying, it seemed that, in some ways, we were more freaked out by the bug than were other people here. Had they unconsciously absorbed the lunatic message of the nation’s leader, that the virus will one day magically go away? Or was it part of that uplifting Californian mind-set that says one must never have—let alone express—negative feelings about anything?

I said at the outset that this account would unfold in real time, and, sure enough, the situation is constantly changing, and always for the worse. Certainly, the mood on campus shifted dramatically this week. Most doors have been propped open so that no one has to touch them. Until at least April 14th, all teaching will be done online using something called Zoom—yet another source of anxiety for older and technologically vulnerable faculty members such as myself. Who knows when we will return physically to classrooms? On the plus side, LA, generally, is a far healthier city than New York or London. It’s more spread out, and the worst thing about it—the relative lack of public transportation––might turn out to be one of the best things about it. On the minus side, I ride the Expo Line train all the time—another reason why I need the bottle of hand sanitizer more than my wife does. Besides, as a writer, I am uniquely at risk. Although it’s a wretched life in some ways, I’ve always been heartened by the all-redeeming advantage of spending one’s days writing at home: the freedom to pick one’s nose whenever the urge takes hold—which is pretty much all the time. That’s got to stop. But the writer’s finger is vocationally programmed to go up the writer’s nose. Even now, as I press these keys, a dangerous counter-gravity is urging hand toward face, nose, nostril. Keep typing, keep pounding the keys (which I’m touching now, seconds after sending a text to my tennis partner, on the very same phone that I checked while out having breakfast, before washing my hands when I got back).

Some changes are easier to make, though not necessarily more effective than others. My tennis partner and I have abandoned shaking hands at the end of a match—but, since I’ve touched the tennis balls that he has touched, what’s the point? Also, like many men of my generation, I have a fondness for paying with that filthy, contaminated stuff called cash. (Speaking of which, does anyone, even in London, a city of proud and determined caners, still snort coke through shared banknotes?) I’ve got to start paying with a card, but, weirdly, America seems less contactless than the UK; you’re always having to touch screens, trying quickly to choose the No Tip option while the barista is looking elsewhere. And why get anxious about screen touching when the cutlery has been touched, when you’re drinking out of cups that have been handed to you by the hands of others? Especially when my wife points out that I’m holding the cup not by the aptly named handle but with my fingers round the cup itself in some residual affectation of or longing for the French style of drinking coffee out of a bowl, as if we were back in those idyllic times before every day was spent as both victim and suspect in the ongoing forensic investigation into this hand-to-mouth crime scene called life.

No wonder we’re conflicted. I say two things to my wife all the time, one pitiful (“What will become of us?”) and the other Churchillian: “Be of good cheer.” It cheers one up, saying this, but while I’m saying it I am inwardly clutching my head like Munch’s screamer. There he is, stranded in the midst of a blazing pandemic, gripped by the existential realization that shops are out of face masks and sanitizer and—this is the killer—that, while screaming, he’s also touching his face. Aaargh! ###

[British-born Geoff Dyer is Writer in Residence at the University of Southern California (USC). He also has been a visiting professor at the the University of Iowa, Columbia University (NYC), and in 2016, was a Visiting Professor at the Michener Center for Writers of the University of Texas in Austin. Dyer is a Fellow of the Royal Society of Literature, an Honorary Fellow of Corpus Christi College, Oxford, and in 2015 was elected to the American Academy of Arts and Sciences. He has written four novels as well as several non-fiction works. See all of his books here. Dyer received an AB (English) from the Corpus Christi College at Oxford University (UK).]

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